Why do I mention a post I didn't post? Well I was reading through some blogs, the happy sappy Mormon Mommy's who make life seem like they are nothing but cherry blossoms and bubble gum. But then I was reading through my emails that I receive from a very popular public speaker/author named Darren Hardy.
Mr. Hardy speaks very frequently about making positive choices and creating your "destiny" as some would call it.
There was a series of emails he titled "Knocked on Your Tush" that basically said we all have problems, we all have heartache, loss, misery, etc. The point is that we all get knocked on our butts and we can all survive, its just that some of us do it better than others.
So I have been in a super bad place mentally for the last month and a half. It has effected my health, our home, my marriage, my kids and the list goes on.
I got to a point that I just couldn't do anything. I couldn't get out of bed. I couldn't do the dishes, do the laundry. I didn't want to talk to anyone on the phone, not even my family. It's been crazy bad. I have never been so down and low.
The last couple weeks I have been trying really hard to get up, shake it off and move forward. Some days are good, some better and some flat out suck. So the "ah-ha" moment that I found while reading Mr. Hardy's posts was as follows:
I was finally getting out of bed. Finally working around the house. Finally calling on bills that are behind, etc. Then I woke up the morning my dad was going in for shoulder surgery and my shoulder, which I have had many problems with, and had been on a leave of absence for torture, decided to put me in major pain mode. We found it very funny considering dad's surgery.
The major stinky part of this whole thing is that it hasn't stopped hurting.
Problems with the shoulder started back in my school days and don't usually cause any chaos. Working as a housekeeper at the hospital made it worse and I was diagnosed with tendinitis as well as the already existant bursitis. And the herniated disc, and no this isn't a whine fest, just a history to back up my "ah-ha" moment.
So trying to be in a much better move I was "dancing" in my shower and twisted my back really bad, to the point where it is a chronic pain now as well.
So the "ah-ha" moment. I have been super bad freaking out because Brian and I have both been out of work. We are both looking, and trying to line some things up, but in the mean time we have had to apply for state aid. I don't like the idea of being a welfare case, but times are desperate. The last time we spoke to our case worker we were told that Brian and I were not going to be covered medically, which was fine as long as the kids were covered. That was until my shoulder and back flared up.
So all weekend I have been bummed out again, close to crawling back in that bed and never leaving. Then I read this article from Mr. Hardy where he speaks about several different people who have faced insurmountable odds and overcome them. So I put on my big girl panties and figured we would work it out one way or another. Not 10 minutes later, our case worker calls and says that Brian and I will have medical for 2 months.
About 4 years ago the same thing happened. I had been having the most ridiculous time trying to get pregnant and wasn't able to. It was when I finally threw my hands in the air and surrendered that I became pregnant with my cute little Mick.
So long story short, everything happens for a reason, we just don't always know what it is. You can find the information that Mr. Hardy has written at http://darrenhardy.success.com/2011/02/knocked-part-1/
A couple of quotes that I found enlightening:
Quoting Mr. Darren Hardy:
It’s not whether you get knocked down (everyone will get knocked down), it’s how fast you get up. We all experience failure, setbacks, disappointments and obstacles. And yes it hurts, and that is okay. We are human. Rejection, failure and letdowns hurt humans. It’s part of the deal.
Mr. Hardy quotes Roger Crawford saying, "Focus on what you CAN do instead of what you CAN’T do."
So here is to getting knocked on our butts/tushes and getting back up.
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